Truth!
After a brief trip down the hall, early this morning, I tucked my creaky-achey self back in the bed, longing for a bit more comfort after yesterday’s adventure with the physical therapist.
Oddly, I found more than I hoped!
(In order to follow along, you need to know that I am nearsighted. At least I used to be. Now I’m some deeply inconvenient combination of near/far/in-between sighted. And, I need to have my eyes checked! This does not help my cranky neck!)
Anyway… I curled under the weighted blanket, glasses still beside me on the nightstand, and wound up facing the front window.
Grey. Chilly-looking. Quiet. I snuggled a bit deeper and closed my eyes.
And opened them, again.
And, again… close – open… (You know how it goes!)
By the third or fourth time I saw her!
The face in the trees! Head tipped to one side. Looking a great deal like one of Shiloh Sophia’s how-to-draw-a-face demos!
And my language center kicked in!
How long has she been there?
Why have I never seen her before?
What is she saying?
You know I like questions!
And so I listened while I watched.
At one point, I reached for my phone and took the photo so I wouldn’t forget. (As if!!!)
I considered putting my glasses on, but I wouldn’t have been able to lay, watching, at the same angle.
And, then, I heard her!
And the tears rolled down my cheeks and into my pillow as she whispered:
I’ve been here all along. You only need to look!
That got me out of bed!
Heat flipped on. Tea made. Nearest black pen in hand.
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And, yep! Tissues.
And Filters! (Especially the ones about beliefs and learning new things!)
Who is she? The Divine? Me?? Ancestors???
(It’s a good thing I’ve been editing my Map of Reality, lately!)
Why does this feel familiar? Ahhh! Ten year old me. Leaving the eye doctor’s office with my first pair of glasses. Able to see – for the first time – individual leaves on trees!
What does she want? What I need… perspective!!!
Or, to put it another way… What matters in my soul!!!
The next question feels a bit more challenging… How will I do that???
The answer to that one is an old answer. One that’s not original to me.
One day at a time!
For today that means Phoebe’s eye medicine. A bunch of meetings of the starting-new-things variety. These words, for you!
Along with a smidge of my fabulous batch of bone broth for lunch, complete with bay laurel leaves, for victory. And, a few drops of Courage oil for – you know – showing up!
ps… do you suspect you have some more showing up to do? Are there things you’re only beginning to give yourself permission to want? I can help! Spend a few minutes jotting down your thoughts, then allow the calendar elves to find us some time to talk. My gift to you!
pps… we’ve got this!