Holding Hope in the Chaos…

This is an #Apothecary painting from a couple years back. I love #Apothecary… especially this one! And, last night, it was whispering from the wall, complete with notions of healing and relief and hope! Of perspective shifts!

Not a huge surprise, really. I mean, the question of our time seems to be all about holding hope in the midst of more chaos than many of us have known before.

As I experience the painting, the chaos is appearing in the sky, over the mysterious blue dotted being who is either an elephant or an octopus, depending on your perspective. (If you’re curious, look up elephant and octopus spirit animals and see what you learn!)

The real hope for me, in this moment, is the reminder that while the chaos feels big and close and – well – terrifying, I know there is more that is true. It has always been so and probably always will be.

My book is becoming more real by the day.

My wrist is becoming more chaotic. More painful. Less predictable. All my “typing” these days – and much of my painting – involves support gloves with copper threads which seem somewhat helpful, at least in the moment.

The big thing, though, is the sense of calling I feel to get this book out into the world – into the hands of our tweens and teens – now, when they probably feel all the chaos, too, and may not have as much practice processing it as I’ve had.

Just now, I’m going to listen to my inner wisdom which is, perhaps, elephant/octopus wisdom on some mysterious level, and let that be enough for this moment.

The Elephant and the Octopus agree! They also agree that I could, in fact, make one more matched campaign donation and turn my phone off… just in case that results in a wee bit less chaos!

ps… if your inner Medicine Basket could use a bit of new wonder, check out my MetaMod Wisdom Cards… for YOUR journey to the place where YOU are called! Just click here to be magically transported to new-ness! Daphne’s eager to help!

Wow, did I need questions!!!

I’m going to take a wild guess that I’m not the only one having trouble sorting the world these days! The chaos in my dreams has been – well – assertive.

So, yesterday, I fished in my medicine basket for a few favorite questions, my journal, a beloved pen with red ink, and a handful of index cards because you just never know when one of those will be the key to the door! The cuppa cacao probably helped, too!

My first question was, as it often is… What am I trying to accomplish?

The thing I love about that one is that it feels like a new doorway, handle polished and hinges freshly oiled! The answer followed almost immediately!

To create a plan – a vision – a map that will enable me to be able to keep telling the stories that will help our Littles be who they were created to be… to tell the stories I was created to tell and to set them free to help the world heal! (As my ancestors did…)

Then, another question, which took a bit longer to appear… What will be better once that is real?

The answer took a bit longer to appear, too. A whole night, in fact. And when I woke, I heard…

I’ll be able to do the work, rather than grasping at shiny things out of fear!!!

Now, the last question has been one of my most terrifying favorites for a while now, and it didn’t disappoint… What’s holding me back?

Money is holding me back. More specifically, the FEAR of not having enough. Of all the things that could go wrong, of not wanting to over-stress my beloveds. I took a deep breath and wrote it all down.

And then, another piece of the answer arrived, like a gift…

Maximize the resources I already have access to. Continue to ask for help from my healing tribe. And, most of all, act on what I can!!!

No clue what will come next. Only that I am less afraid and that, dear hearts, is not a bad day’s work! Give it a try and let me know how it goes. You can leave a comment, or email me at suesvoice@gmail.com

For now… one more word:

ONWARD!!!

ps… as you might have guessed from the painting, you are not alone!

When we have to say “no” to say “YES!”

I’m guessing you hear me! If nothing else, this moment in time is a huge reminder that none of us can do it all! (Especially not the ones who are convinced that they can!)

At least in my world, that means making choices, and there are lots of ways to do that. We can choose out of fear. We can choose out of guilt. We can choose out of wanting to fit in. Or, we can choose from a place of intention. Of what we’re trying to accomplish with our lives.

My primary example of that, just now, is the book I’m sneaking up on finishing. It takes time. It takes money. It takes energy. It takes concentration. It takes faith and hope. It takes rest. Most of all, it takes saying no to things that don’t help!

I’ll bet you have examples of things that don’t help, screaming for attention in your head, too.

Here’s an obvious one, at least for those of us in the U.S. The election! As much as I’d like to, I can’t buy places in the House or Senate for as many folks as I’d like. Nor, in Georgia. And, since that kind of buying is pretty much what we’re fighting against, feeling guilty or inadequate about my limits doesn’t help. So… I’m giving to groups that are matching gifts. You know… we’ll quadruple your donation! And I only give to the ones I already trust. Generally, the ones close to home, though there are a few exceptions for me. (You, obviously, do you!) It’s just that I’m not wasting time feeling guilty, anymore. Or eeny-meeny-ing this one or that one.

And, in a very real way, I’m supporting candidates that also believe in what I’m trying to accomplish with my book. Creating a world where our Littles can practice claiming Fierce Compassion. And, Choice!

Fortunately, the whole telling the stories bit comes naturally to me!

Glinda is, of course, all in. A cherished reminder that I DO have the magic… and so do you! And, she’s claimed a bit of real estate where she can be a constant reminder in the space where so much of the magic happens. The studio! There’s lots of stuff shifting in there just now, but Glinda has become both hope and peace in the midst of the chaos. I’m grateful!!!

And, I have more editing to do!

Let me know what kind of space and energy you’re claiming…. it is, indeed, going to take a whole lot of us. And, yes, this magic works wherever you live and whatever you’re creating!

ps… in the practice what I preach department, I made a decision today! Some really cool (recorded) natural world things I’m studying and loving are going to have to wait until the book manuscript is done! How ’bout you???

Limbs of the family tree…

Both my mom’s family, and my dad’s, had people in the way-back days who were named variations on Mattie. I can’t find the details of who and where, just now.

Here’s what I do remember… Mattie-ing on somebody meant something pretty close to herding them. You know – expecting, directing – those kinds of things. And, yes… I’ve been watching the news! (Though not nearly as much as usual!)

Now, I’m no fan of expecting and directing. I’m much more comfortable with intentional questions and suggestions. With noticing and wondering.

At this moment, though, I seem to be the one who needs a bit of Mattie-ing. Self Mattie-ing, to be exact! You see, it’s pretty tempting to just quit trying to make things better. Fires. Floods. Earthquakes. Plane crashes. Murder. Racism. Poverty. Megalomania. You hear me. And I’m hugely aware that I can’t fix it all. In fact, some of it’s way too big for me to fix alone.

What I can do is make what I can reach just a bit better.

That’s where the creativity and Feng Shui come in! (Really!)

The cat-in-progress you just met is a wise voice in my tweens & teens book-in-progress, and she’s coming to life! Layer by layer. (I never tried to paint a cat before!) Her name is Gloria and she informed me, emphatically, that we – you and I – are part of the message Gloria Steinem left for us to carry.

Then, there’s the place where the Legendary Husband and I abide. It hasn’t so much kept up with our changing needs and, for a while, I think we might have been busy pretending we didn’t notice. I’m choosing to notice, again, and it’s getting better, already. Intentionally better!

We’re working hard to make this brick ranch, built in 1962, be safe and comfortable and supportive, here and now. It’s a challenge… though I am starting to feel a smidge more hopeful! (Though the new fridge still needs some help!)

Somewhere, deep in my consciousness, I can almost hear Mattie brusquely suggesting that we stay on the road.

I’m in!

ps… I just rearranged the book shelf next to the magic chair and put some wisdom cards in easy reach. Some from friends. Some of my own! And you can get your very own deck of mine! Just click here for all the info. I’d be delighted and honored to mail you a batch. They really were created to help all of us make what we can reach just a bit better. (Or, maybe… lots better!) It’s that whole perspective and strategies thing!!!

pps… internal book release goal: November 1, 2026!!!

Are you ready???

Okay, technically, we’ve already begun, but we’ve saved a special space for YOU, and time for you to dance your way to caught up! Really!!!

And, yes… we’re talking Red Madonna… the Womb of Living Waters!

You know… painting, dancing, and helping to heal the energy of the world. Really!!!

The photo is what Shiloh & Havi, our fearless leaders, had on their canvases at the end of day two…

My canvas is empty. These first two days, my job was to be what’s known as Eyes & Ears. Kinda camp counselor for a fabulous group of woman from all over the world! (Camp Counselor is my thing!!!) We had lots of music, too.

This is a year-long adventure and we’d love to have you join us.

Frankly, my hand is way past cranky about typing just now, so I’m going to count on you to click the link and just go exploring. And I’m going to say, in all seriousness, that this is what we holders of hope and healers of humanity need in this moment!!!

https://musea.org/red-madonna-womb-of-living-waters

ps… there are options for paying along the way, and a whole lot of wild women to walk with you. And, it really, really, really doesn’t matter if you’ve never painted before, or your mom told you that you weren’t the artistic kid… we’ve got you!!!

Words for this moment, from a special guest…

Today it is my great joy to share these deeply magical and poetic words from my sister, teacher, and friend, Shiloh Sophia McCloud, with YOU! Fix yourself a cuppa and settle in…

Do you know Her?
The One who carries creation?

The One from whom we arose?
The One that nursed us alive?


Her Milky Way feeds us sweet milk


Do you know Her?

The Protector of Animals

The Protector of Children
The Protecter of Trees


Her Milky Way feeds us sweet milk 


She is Our Lady of Creation

The Great Ma of all Great Mamas

The Great Mystery of the sky, the land,

the primordial watery womb of all creation 

Her Milky Way feeds us sweet milk


Will you lift your face to drink?

Will you lift your mind to love?

Will you let Her in?

She is standing at the door of your heart

The Divine Feminine isn ‘t returning –

She never went anywhere

It is us who are returning.

-Shiloh Sophia

 

Click here for all the info… Join us for Red Madonna – Womb of Living Waters 


 We open with a professionally filmed Live Stream from MUSEA in Sonoma with Curate Shiloh Sophia and Havi Mandell. Here is a message from Shiloh to each of us…

Dear One…

In 2011, I found myself on my knees. You could say I was in prayer, but it fel more like despair on the hardwood floor. The lowest I have ever been in my life. I prayed to the Blessed Mother – show me what to do – how do I get out of this place I am in?

I heard a clear instruction – to gather women around Her. To tell Her story. To paint Her. Who she is – lives differently in all of us. Since then thousands of women have painted Her – she who appears in your heart. 

The Red Madonna sisterhood was born from my tears. Women from all spiritual traditions gathered to answer the call and we have not stopped gathering since then. Red Madonna is the longest standing membership circle in the community. Because – we need it.

A creative spiritual path rooted in the practice of painting, prayer, poetry and community. This is sanctuary and sisterhood. 

What happens when a Jewish Shaman, a Reluctant Priestess, a Mystical Christian Reverend, a Queer Storyteller, a Elemental Ceremonialist and a Magdalenian put their hearts and hands together? Red Madonna.

Who we are is different each cycle we gather – and it will be different again because of you. We will be painting the womb of primordial waters, the Sacred Feminine through your eyes. If you are seeking solace and circle – you found it. 

Perhaps it is your time to join us for this 13 moon path. I look forward to Havi, who has been with us since day 1 – travelling to the ranch to paint with me for the live opening weekend. We will begin with a blessing of the waters. Everything is instantly recorded so you don’t have to join in real time – but the energy is real time. I hope to see you in this sacred circle. This is the only consistent circle of painting for our community until 2027. Hop on in – we have been calling you in – perhaps you have been calling us too!


Shiloh Sophia 

This next bit is me… Sue. It is my huge joy to be preparing for my seventh journey in the land of Red Madonna and my deep honor to be part of the team. I honestly can’t think of a place I’d rather be, in the midst of this moment! Come wade in the waters of the courage and community to go on!

My watery friends and I are so hoping you’ll say yes!!!

It’s WONDER-FULL Wednesday and YOU’RE here!!!

If you have a magic wand handy, pick it up, please. If not, just imagine one. We’re having an adventure! First, though, let me introduce you to my friend, Havi Brysk Mandell…

Havi is an Intentional Creativity® Sister. She’s a wander-er in wonder. A teacher who loves to learn. A leader of this community. And a writer of magical invitations, like the one I’m about to share with you, in her voice! (A cuppa would be in order, too!)

First, some magic words…

“If there is magic on this planet, it is contained in water.” – Loren Eiseley

“Nothing is softer or more flexible than water, yet nothing can resist it.” – Lao Tzu

“Water is the driver of nature.” – Leonardo da Vinci”

“Always be like water. Float in the times of pain or dance like waves along the wind which touches its surface.” – Santosh Kalwar 

Meditating On Living Waters

It has been a bit over a week since those of us, in the Red Madonna community, held our Come Home to the Waters retreat. I know that a number of you reading this now may have had the experience of watching the replay – receiving messages, healing release, and creating a beautiful painting. Each painting that I have seen has felt like a beautiful healing balm and affirmation of the gifts of Water in our lives and as a precious teacher for ways we can be more like water.

I am finding myself experiencing my movement through all the moments of life as more of a lyrical dance of encounter and return, ebb and flow, of receiving and being touched by the presence of another as part of my unfolding, flowing life journey. I listen for the flow of harmony and disharmony and I am noticing flowing songs around me, some of which I never noticed before. That includes noticing the song of my tears as I witness stories of pain all around me and inviting that song to move me into a new consciousness, a new bubbling spring calling me to listen and follow….not denying the pain and grief, but to expand, as waters do, into a flow that holds both grief and joy, despair and wonder. 

What are the messages you have received from water?

 I wonder if you are willing to receive one of the precious messages of water: that water always returns and replenishes from its source, from abundant flow, rather than parched effort. 

Water doesn’t apologize for remaining connected to its source. A spring doesn’t feel guilty for filling itself before it becomes a river. A river doesn’t nourish the land by trying harder. It nourishes because it never stops receiving.

I think that one of the deepest illusions of our time is that nourishment is something we’ll get to after we’ve done enough, after we’ve helped enough people, after we’ve answered enough emails, after we’ve carried enough responsibility. But life doesn’t work that way. 

The source is not a reward for our effort. The source is where our effort begins, what births and flows it. 

This is why we created Womb of the Living Waters.

It isn’t simply about painting. It isn’t simply about water. It isn’t even just about the Divine Feminine.

It is an invitation to return to the source from which your creativity, your compassion, your wisdom, and your love naturally arise.

It is a place to rediscover the current beneath the striving, because the world doesn’t only need our effort. It needs our aliveness. It needs people whose work arises from connection rather than depletion. People whose creativity flows from wonder instead of pressure. People who remember that beauty is not an escape from reality but one of the ways reality heals itself. 

If you’ve recognized that you’ve been faithfully pouring yourself into the world while feeling less connected to the spring within… Perhaps this is your invitation, not because you need another thing to do, but because you deserve a place to be nourished, to remember, to receive, to let the waters within you begin to move again.

If that speaks to something true in you, if the waters within are stirring and the waters without calling  I’d love to welcome you into this journey. I know what becomes possible when we stop living as if we are separate from the source that has been loving us all along.

Let’s become rivers again, not by trying harder, but by remembering the spring.

And let’s feel the pulse of the red thread that connects us come alive with the nourishing heart medicine that is the Sisterhood of Red Madonna. Wouldn’t it be wonderful to actively and creatively tend to the heartflow of connection, to creation, and to the Sacred Feminine in a loving, supportive community? 

I invite you to consider deepening your journey with us and to join us for a year of immersion in the Cosmic Womb and Living Waters of Creation. HERE is the invitation to Red Madonna 2026. May your heart flow wild and free. May you feel the nourishing, healing blessings of the sacred waters. May you, in your own way, help heal the waters within and around us and be like the precious waters.If you have any questions about Red Madonna, please contact Havi, Red Madonna Director at havi.mandell@musea.org 

With So Much Love and Gratitude, ~Havi, Sue, Olivia, Katie, and Hobby- the Red Madonna Team

ps… I – Sue – have been part of the Red Madonna journey since 2018. It feeds my soul. It keeps me on the road, even now. And it gives me a safe place to gather with women asking big questions in this moment. If you’re even just a smidge curious, click the magic HERE button to learn more. We’d be thrilled to have you with us!