3 Gallons of Tears… 1/4 inch below the surface!

So, I’ve always hated multiple-choice tests! One answer is right. All the rest are wrong. 

Now is not like that! 

(No time is ever really like that!)

There are, however, thousands of years worth of things which could be a whole lot better!

First, a bit of context… Some of you were there, on Monday!

We were having a meeting! We, in this case, being the flock of Intentional Creativity® sisters engaged in the journey known as Origins.

We are a diverse, global group gathered to learn even more about teaching deep, deep tools for humanity in this world, now. And, yes, paint is involved!

One of the threads which runs through this complex journey is conscious acknowledgement that most, if not all, of us live on lands which once were home to Indigenous peoples who were killed or forcibly re-located by the over-culture.

One of our Sisters spoke of her experiences as a person living in Canada, with extensive Indigenous roots. As she shared her story, she mentioned her decision to wear an orange shirt to the gathering because the day we are beginning to think of as Indigenous Peoples’ Day used to be known as Orange Shirt Day… a reference to the tragedy of residential schools.

Part of our homework is to learn, intentionally, about the people on whose land each of us now lives and to do some writing about what we learn. And I will.

First, though, memories… of the inner Little’s scrap bag – collage sort!

I was born in Minnesota. We spent a lot of time there, despite our many moves. There were grandparents there. And really good fishing!

Somewhere in the family archives – and in my head – there is a photo of me the summer I was 3 years old. We were up in the Northern Minnesota lake country in some parking lot, someplace.

Native Peoples – probably Ojibwe – were having a celebration. There was drumming and circle dancing. At one point, all the children in the crowd were invited to join the dance.

I rushed to find a place in that circle. Much to the amazement/dismay of my family! (Rumor has it that I was the only “white” child who joined in.)

I, the tragically uncoordinated kid in the family, with absolutely no sense of rhythm.

That photo, wherever it actually is these days, showed a huge grin on my face. (And a little puff-legged sun suit which tied at my shoulders. Remember???)

Vivid, kinesthetic memories of that day, along with my family’s fondness for wild rice – which I totally share – all bubbled up for me during our meeting. Along with my growing genealogical knowledge of how diversely and deeply my heritage runs.

Clear back, in fact, to a couple of Jewish Great-grandfathers named Hezekiah from the time just before Yeshua. And the Great-grandmothers who were their partners, whose names I have not yet been able to discover.

Meanwhile… Israel, in this moment.

And gallons of tears.

And orange paint.

Drippy finger-print prayer dots. Lots and lots of them.

And hand prints. Witness. Power. Promise. Mine.

Because none of this is a multiple choice test! Unless, of course, choices a through d are peace, respect, support, and consequences, and the final choice – the right choice – is all of the above!

Which is pretty much what President Biden said yesterday!

And, under all of this, my intention to grow my world until I remember, all the time, that it must be our world.

ps… this is my Intentional view from the magic chair in this moment. If you squint, you can see a Hebrew word in the painting on the easel. It’s one of the words for Hope! (And how I go on hoping.)

pps… curious??? Great! That’s our best state for learning new things!!! So, 45 min. My gift. You bring your notion of the place where you are called. Of your mission, if you will, in this moment. And a bit of red thread if it’s handy. Just click and the calendar elves will hook you up!

Medicine for too much news…

It happens now and then.

And this is definitely NOW!

Unlike a migraine, with its frequent warning signals, this snuck up on me. A really big case of news-overdose!

I know. I could just not watch. (And sometimes I don’t.) But, in this moment, it all feels really big and close and there’s a muscle in my back that’s more committed than usual to the really cool chair and – well – I have 2 granddaughters trying really hard to grow up in this world!

This world which feels overflowing with discrimination and hunger and conspiracy and book banning and guns and rampaging vested interest.

(This is me… trying to be something approaching broad-minded, which – frankly – can be pretty exhausting!)

So… you fill in the blanks. Suffice it to say, that I was literally drowning in news.

I did take time out for a virtual meeting with a dear friend and former intern. Predictably, the conversation turned to paint!

She’s been invited to share a workshop on Spirituality and Art! And that, when you get right to the heart of things, is a whole lot like Medicine Painting.

And, yes… you can probably guess where this is going!

One of the things we reviewed, as we chatted, was the amazing fact that painting – especially the practice known as prayer dots – helps our whole brain be occupied with something other than the horror of the news!

It has to do with primary patterns of neuro-processing and boils down to this… when we move our hands to make a mark while saying/thinking a word of intention, we see the mark with our eyes, and we hear the word, and our brain is doing kinesthetic, auditory/digital, and visual processing all at the same time.

It’s a bit like patting your head and rubbing your belly while singing a song!

And, it gets easier with practice because our brain actually gets more integrated while it happens.

This, by the way, is even more miraculous to me, having had my hands inside human skulls with real, living brains… which are not remotely like the plastic models in bio class!

So… canvas, paint, an old, scrubby brush, and a squirt bottle. A bit of Vision anointing oil on the crown of my head. Plus, the intent to heal, move, or transform, which is the working definition of Medicine Painting in the land of Intentional Creativity®

Oh! There’s another intention which goes with such an adventure!

…to heal and receive insight both during the painting and afterwards.

Which, all things considered, feels a good deal better than swearing at the news!

After I painted, scrubbed off most of the paint and fixed myself some food – along with a bit of really dark chocolate – I switched to Madame Secretary.

I don’t have it memorized yet, like I do The West Wing, but I’m making progress. (Feel free to shake your head and laugh if you need to!)

Here’s the bit that jumped out at me in this moment:

It’s only impossible if we fail to try!

And that, dear heart, along with the paint spatters all over my glasses, is quite likely to get me out of bed in the morning, ready to try again.

And that ain’t nuthin’!

Let us begin with Peace….

ps… huge thanks to Shiloh Sophia McCloud, and the host of art ancestors before us, for sharing the hope!

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She’s gone to meddlin’ !

Grandmother Moon has, apparently, been listening closely from her place on the wall. And, wow, was she feeling chatty this morning!

Chatty, in my dreams…

This time, the place where Filters, my mom, and the news bump into each other. This, by the way, is a deeply important place!

If you’ve been reading along, you may recall that my mom was a Republican. My grandmother was a Republican. I’m betting her mother was, too, though I never knew her.

And they were Republicans who grew up in the context of the Great Depression and World War II and FDR and Truman.

We “stayed safe” in my family, by doing things the way we’d always done them… even when the world wasn’t the way it had “always” been.

And, yes… I can feel you nodding as you read!

Let me admit, up front, that I am not an expert on Carl Jung. I did spend a good bit of time hanging out at Pacifica Graduate Institute with people who were. That’s probably where my ear heard this:

The first thing we learn, as humans, is that the way to survive is by keeping the tall people happy!

That notion, which I think is Jung’s, lives, in my mental library, on the same shelf with Steve Glenn’s work on Developing Capable People.

Jung is to the left, which – in bookshelf land – means before. Steve comes next… which also means in a new context.

To the right of Steve is my book, Grandmothers Are In Charge Of Hope! (It’s what gets me out of bed on the tough days!)

A bit to the right of that is the wild card. A box of Alana Fairchild’s Sacred Rebel oracle cards. (And no… that’s NOT the way we’ve always done it! In fact, some of we might seriously consider voting me off the island for this one!)

And, yes… that’s bit of wisdom Grandmother Moon told me to chose today!

So, card #4. AGAINST THE GRAIN. The reading begins this way…

You want birds to be able to fly underwater. You want love to [overcome] power. You want humanity to relate to each other as equals and to recognise the sacred in you and in the world around you… you want to make possible what others say cannot be. You are a radical dreamer, a sacred rebel, and you bring the light of a more positive future to this world.

And, I do. Deep breath, now… for the punch line:

The price you pay for the gift of individuality is that you must take care of it and guard it so that you are not dulled down and conditioned into playing at being something you are not… You will then find other dreamers, other wild butterflies and atypically coloured sheep to join you in conjuring better visions for our world.

Granted, it’s a bit optimistic. And I’m on it!

Here’s the thing… the GOP filter worked for mom but – in this context – it isn’t working so well. So I can add a few other strategies… without throwing out all the ones I learned that ARE working!

One of those strategies I did learn from my folks – in retrospect – was the benefit of empowering over enabling.

Possibly because, after I had reached the ability to think abstractly, I had Steve whispering in my ear, too!

For this moment, though, it’s time to circle for a landing!

The stroll down memory lane which Grandmother Moon decided would be helpful is all about Filters and context and how to get where we long to be, even in moments like this.

Grandmother Moon also told me to choose the glimpse of Liberating Lily for our “featured image” today. Trust me when I tell you, I let go of a whole bunch of the way we’ve always done it when she was on my easel!

And, just a couple of days ago, I realized that Lily is me! At least the me I am becoming!

So, if you’re still reading and, possibly, reaching for Kleenex… I have an offer for you! 45 minutes. My gift. We’ll talk about what is you and how to get closer to where you feel called to be. I’ll even share why Filters could be exactly what your medicine basket is longing for! The Calendar Elves will hook you up!

Grandmother Moon and Daphne will be thrilled to meet you! They ARE Good Trouble!

ps… the #Flow Nouveau painting I’ve been so excited about lately… it goes really well with the Filters journey! There are prints coming soon… and great stuff now, at FierceArtWithHeart!

I never imagined…

Well, a whole lot of things! And, frankly, a bunch of them are bumping into each other in my head just now.

Blame it on the news… or perhaps my over-consumption of the news… if you like. And the memories bubbling up inside me in the context of the news!

Back in the mid-80’s, when I was a young single mom, I began my second job as an RN.

Surgery! And, as you may recall, I got really tired of being told I didn’t get paid to think! So, I got busy thinking about what I was going to learn next.

Mind you… having a 4 year-old and student loans and a rather socially limited perspective of the world meant that the options felt limited.

The first hurdle was accepting my sense that my childhood dream of becoming a veterinarian didn’t seem likely to happen for me just then. It was hard. I’d fought for that dream for years.

And, I let it go because my world had gotten more complex.

Feel free to laugh at this next bit!

Two of the paths I considered were becoming an accountant or an attorney! Blessedly, I paid attention to the very vivid nightmares I was having and decided my first intention needed to be a Bachelors Degree.

Six years later, I was graduating from Seminary!

The world – and my living in it – have changed a good bit since then!!!

It is, however, Sunday morning, and I do have things to say! Bits and pieces of what’s bringing me comfort and hope in this moment…

Mental quilting, if you will.

Mostly with paint!

You see, what I discovered this weekend, as three paintings clamored for attention and energy and space, was that I am claiming my truth in liquid acrylics!

Yes, there are external plans and intentions. Fabulous guidance from all my chosen art-mamas. Like more context!

And there’s also my growing awareness that my heart – my dreams – my history and my hopes – are guiding my brush. (And my fingers!)

I’m experimenting!

And comforted by the deep knowing that I can learn new things. I can change my mind. I can be me.

Not simply on canvas, but in my being!!!

And, it’s still Sunday morning. So, conscious of the context of the news, garbed in my favorite red thread paint shirt, and barefoot (Gasp!), a message which feels helpful and empowering and eternal from my heart (and one of Kathleen McGowan’s books) to yours…

…this is all so simple. It’s about love and faith and community. And that’s it… The only piece of spiritual wisdom that really matters… It’s this: you can throw away the entire Bible if you just keep what Jesus tells us in Matthew 22: 37 – 40. Love the Lord thy God with all thy heart and love thy neighbor as thyself. On these two commandments hang all the law of the prophets. Done. Finito. That’s all you need to know… we can make Bible study courses three minutes long, because that’s the entire teaching right there. Everything else just gets in the way and obscures the message.

May it be so! Preferably, NOW!!! And, as another of my teachers – Dr. Clarissa Pinkola Estes – would say… A-men, a-men, a-men… and a little woman!

ps… the quote is from The Book of Love. The character speaking is Fr. Peter Healy. Thanks, Kathleen!

pps… just in case you suspect you hear Filters at work here… You’re right! Want to know more??? Check it out! (The elves are, indeed, at work!)

ppps… looking for an amazing paint adventure??? Have I got an invitation for you! It’s the next part of the journey we Intentional Creativity® folks refer to as Red Madonna. Specifically, a call to explore the Divine Mother and the Tree of Life through Painting, Community, and Sisterhood!!! Just CLICK HERE (Soon!!!) for all the details… The charming glimpse of a hopeful being, above, is a peek from our current exploration…

Of red ink and other curious things…

I’ve spent a whole lot of time flinging red ink around the world.

It’s often called editing and, back in the dark ages, when I began doing that sort of thing, we really did use red ink.

It all began with yearbook staff when I was in high school. I got named head of the grammar police!

I don’t know why I’m good at it. I just am. And that may be helped along by the fact that my brain hears what my eyes read!

So, I’ve needed a good bit of virtual red ink this week. Here’s what happened…

A week or so ago I had a conversation with a paint sister. One thing led to another, as things often do, and I ended up agreeing to shake an idea out of my head and into a form that could be shared. With more people.

Gulp!!!

That meant fluffing some not-quite-current things here on the website. Which meant adding a recent book title and replacing a couple of photos, and the kinds of really tech-y things for which I need – and am blessed to have – serious help.

And, while all that was going on, I was wrestling with a painting. Flow Nouveau!

I spent much of my weekend flow-ing. And it was fun. Except for the part where the next right thing totally didn’t work for me! A couple of times!!!

All of which made it kind of a miracle that I got any sleep at all.

Then, Grandmother Moon showed up early this morning, to help. (And, yes… I was getting nervous!)

Along with the usual whispering in my ear, she left a story under my pillow. And, oddly for me, a glimpse of an image in my head. A glimpse of the next right thing for my painting.

Story first!

My son is mostly colorblind, which I didn’t know until he was about eight!

The new eye doc with the fancy kiddie-cartoon tools figured it out and a whole lot of things made more sense.

One of those things has kind of taken up residence in my head. It has to do with Dave’s first grade teacher. You see, Dave made lots of marks in the way the world refers to as backwards.

Math was a struggle. I asked for a meeting with his teacher.

I tried really hard to explain that when he made numbers backwards it didn’t mean his answer to the math problem was wrong!

I begged her to use a color other than red to re-draw the number in the more usual left-to-right fashion.

And, yes… it was about two years later before I learned he was colorblind. Which gave both of us more information for learning!

I even tried editing my work in other colors for a while, but my brain understands “fix stuff in red” so I mark my paper stuff up that way. Still! Also, some of the professional projects I help with. Book drafts and such.

I did a bunch of red ink stuff this morning and things are way better. So much so that I pushed the button and sent the thing and set up a meeting. (I’ll keep you posted!!!)

Then, I took advantage of that rare inner glimpse of an image

And I spent a bunch of my day helping my painting make its way back much closer to where it was when I fell in love with it. It wasn’t that I did it wrong. I just didn’t know where I was headed!

There’s more to do… fixing the fixing, if you will. And then a few finishing steps I didn’t quite make it through, before. Kind of like the undo button!

It FEELS so much better, already

If you squint a bit, you may notice that the paint – much of it red – is still wet.

And I have huge hope!

ps… these days I think of red ink – and red paint – as symbols for the red yarn which connects us with all those who will be important in our lives, if we’re willing!

pps… there’s one more thing I’m done editing! It’s the first thing you’ll find when you click here and it’s really, really cool!!! Go for it…………………… (The other stuff is really cool, too!)

Sue Boardman, Certified Intentional Creativity®
Color of Woman Teacher & Coach