Category: Guardians

I just got an email from “somebody,” with a headline asking, Is preppy your style? and offering me a discount on wallpaper!

Short, predictable, answer – Not so much! – though I come from a long line of people who would probably have been comforted if I’d said yes…

Here’s the thing… I used to be really good at following directions. At meeting perceived expectations. At hanging safely in the middle of the pac. Now I know more!

The photo, above, is indeed the vision from the chair that makes things hurt less. Finished work, yes. Some just home from Scan Camp! And works-in-progress. I literally prop them there so they can whisper the next right things to me. The deep answers to what they want next.

And, they do!

See the one behind the sun and the moon???

She was kind of a pop-up with some unexpected requests. As far as the demo live-streams went, she was supposed to be an adventure in background. Many, many layers, which I love. Different art-sisters doing different things with brushes. (And fingers!) Kind of an unfolding mystery.

Mine, however, seemed to focus in on some older paintings that we witnessed as we began. Paintings by an Intentional Creativity® ancestor named Sue Hoya Sellars. Sue walked into her future very early in my journey with canvas and paint and possibility. I just know I would have loved her!

In this moment, the connection had to do with inner and outer consciousness, and crystals.

(That, dear heart, is a sentence I’ve never needed before!)

The group-art demos didn’t go as far as beings. My canvas insisted! The human-ly one in the center was intentional. The seal – or Selkie, perhaps – on your right, appeared as if by magic. And, well, then we needed another one.

With considerable inner dialogue, I have decided not to obsess over making them match! Related is close enough!

Then, I spent some time communing with the crystals in our home. The ones which insisted on helping with this adventure were amethyst and kyanite. (Tip! You can google something along the lines of amethyst energy and discover all kinds of cool things you might not have learned in biology class!)

This is where we were just before the kyanite began, on Saturday evening.

Here’s the exciting thing… I’m following directions from my consciousness-es! A concept which much of the world has attempted to shame and blame out of way too many of us!

And, for a whole lot of reasons, now seems like a really good time to learn to listen to myself. To ourselves. And to spread the word!

Here’s where my friend is, after amethyst joined the kyanite with a whole batch of magic prayer dots…

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You, dear soul, have already figured out why this story in this moment! And, depending on the particular folks who raised you right, you may have already met Aunt Gert… also known as St. Gertrude, the patron saint of cats.

Her story was not one I learned from Gramma Elsie, as I traced honeycomb shaped quilt pieces for her, with a pencil and a pattern made from a Cheerios box.

In fact, I’d bet this was not a story Elsie knew, though she loved stories like she loved quilts. You see, Elsie was raised right by a bunch of folks descended from a bunch of folks who got on a wee boat named the Mayflower and came to these shores to get away from the power structures of the people who did know about Aunt Gert and weren’t amused. And there were lots of stories that got buried. Intentionally.

I, however, have the advantage of questions, and buttons to push to help find answers.

Thus I discovered, while swinging from the branches of my on-line family tree a couple of years ago, a new Great Aunt, many, many generations back. Another of the handful of related Saints nobody ever mentioned.

Here’s what I first learned about Aunt Gert… She was born in what is now Belgium, in 626 CE. Like other women in her prominent family, she chose – with her mother’s help – to escape an arranged marriage of the politically correct and financially beneficial sort, and establish a monastery for women dedicated to living their faith and helping people.

Turns out, though, that there was more to the story.

When Gertrude was only 10 years old she was asked “if she would like to marry a duke.” Despite the power and wealth normally included in such deals back then, Gertrude – in a bold move – declined.

After Gertrude’s father passed on, her mother, Itta, worried lest her still teen-aged daughter be kidnapped for marriage so she shaved Gertrude’s head and built an abbey to protect her daughter. Eventually, that abbey – of Nivelles – became a double monastery where nuns and monks served together.

Pause for amazement!

Eventually, Gertrude served the monastery as the Abbess, though she spent her days caring for others and building hospitals and churches and she walked into her future at the age of 33 years. She was canonized soon thereafter.

What I learned just yesterday was that Gertrude was never officially named patron saint of cats, though the people she served considered her so. This was likely because, in the time of the plague known as The Black Death, cats were important in protecting people, especially the poor, from the rats which carried the disease. And Gertrude protected cats.

What I feel, as I read her story in the context of this moment, is that she was a fan of laying down beliefs which were not empowering! And I like to think of her having a presence something like my #Matrica painting, known as Liberating Lily.

This story also suggests that some of my tendencies in the direction of laying down limiting beliefs just might come from a long line of women who found hope in choosing to fill their Medicine Baskets with tools for change. Among the relatives Aunt Gert and I share are Saint Begga, and a couple of Saint Itta’s, all of whom were noble women, likely among the Beguine communities where women were permitted to own their property and make decisions about their finances!!!

And here we are, 13 or 14 hundred years later, in a world where the guys who think they’re entitled to make all the rules, are making fun of childless cat women. I’m all in for keeping that from happening in this world where my grandteens are trying really hard to grow up!

Matilda, whom you may have met lately, is on board!!!

She’s in charge of overcoming obstacles around here. You know… the path from here to the there where you are called! If you’re ready for some help along the way, let’s talk! Just ask the calendar elves to hook you up with 30 minutes. Our gift. You bring your dream, a cuppa, and some Red Thread, if it’s handy. We’ll come up with the next right thing. Really!

ps… I learned some of the newer parts of Aunt Gert’s story at catster.com in an article which was – ironically – updated yesterday!

pps… Aunt Gert and I are proclaiming that every day is cat lady day around here, even though we’re kind of more rescue Newf people. In fact, every day is strong people ready to make things better for all the people day!

You know those seemingly random ah-hahs that pop up in your consciousness now and then???

The things that don’t seem to fit the moment. The things we don’t do. The things that feel scary and important…

Welcome! You’re going to fit right in today!!!

You see, I’m guessing I’m not the only one who’s noticing an up-tick on the ah-hahs. I’m pretty sure it has to do with newness in the air. And, at least for me, it has to do with hope in the air. I – literally – wrote the book on grandmothers and hope! And this moment still feels different than that! Like way more than I can hold on my own.

So, while I was kind of rolling around in the familiar land of paint and knees and words and red thread, I had one of those ah-hahs.

And, I decided that it didn’t make sense and probably wouldn’t help, anyway.

Then, the same ah-hah bubbled up, again. And, yep… I decided to ignore it again. And, you – wise soul – have probably already realized what happened next.

The third time the same ah-hah appeared, it was literally hopping up and down inside me.

So, I caved – or trusted – this idea that still causes the deep, old voice inside me to insist that WE don’t do that! Because, there are other voices in my awareness, too. Many of them even older and deeper and, frankly, more intriguing than the usual ones. There’s also the fact that I’m all in for the Filters thing, and this is definitely one of those!

As it happens, Alana Fairchild’s Sacred Rebel Oracle Cards were right next to my chair!

I briefly contemplated just opening the book and reading whichever card was number 11. I like 11’s. Then, I decided I was in all the way. So, mixing and shuffling and passing them through my hands until #17 chose me… It’s an energy thing!

The reading begins this way…

You hold in your hand that which you seek.

And, it goes on… In other words, the pair of spectacles you have been rummaging around the house for are sitting on top of your head. What you are seeking, perhaps by exploring far and wide, is actually right under your nose. You may not like this idea! It is so much more wonderful to imagine there is something yet to find. Of course, there is unlimited creative potential and always something more that can be – yet in this instance, it is important for you to know that you already have what you need and what you want. That doesn’t mean it’s the end of the story, although it does ask you to give up the fantasy that a perfect solution lies in the future somewhere. Instead it asks you to acknowledge that everything necessary for success is with you now. All you need do is accept this, and act with what you have available to you…

I know! That hasn’t alway been our perceived experience! For now, though, this is what’s before us, so let’s read a bit more…

It might not seem like you have much to start with. Perhaps you feel that all you have is a small, simple choice to make – perhaps you have a song to begin, an email to send, a conversation to start or a sketch to let loose. However small, it is enough to get the ball rolling… This oracle also comes with special guidance for you. You are more ready than you think you are! You are more prepared than you realize… All that you need in this moment is just one sweet act of nourishment. That is enough to take you out of backwards nostalgia or regret, and forward into what is awaiting you now. Be brave. Dig deep within. And enjoy the sweet surrender… to love for yourself!

This, by the way, is what the whole painting looks like… when we add our voice and our sovereignty to our choices!

And, on the off chance that this isn’t all just me talking to me, please hear me say that now is a very good time to start! (Also, if you live in the USA, a good time to check your voter registration status!)

ps… what if there were treasures inside you, longing to be claimed and set free in a world which desperately needs them? What if I could help you access and own them? And start a path from here to there? (I can!!!) So, click here and ask the calendar elves to hook you up with 30 minutes. My gift. You show up with a cuppa and some Red Thread, if it’s handy… We’ve got this!

(A bit of an old story in the beginning, and a whole new one at the end!)

Once upon a Sunday morning, quite some time ago, 11:00 arrived as it almost always does, and it was my turn to preach. There were a few challenges, that particular day.

It was a Sunday in October. A Sunday for which the Lectionary (complicated calendar of which scripture passages are “for” what day) was utterly unprepared!

You see, in addition to it being whatever Sunday in Ordinary Time, it was also Stewardship Sunday, on Pink Ribbon Sunday for breast cancer awareness, in National Domestic Violence Awareness month.

Yep! Money, sex (Well, some people think so!) and power, all cued up for Sunday morning.

The three things you learned – if you were raised right in the time and places I was – not to talk about!

But I did, because I couldn’t have lived with myself or faced the Creator of my understanding if I hadn’t. I mean, people dealing with all those challenges were sitting in our folding chairs, and not talking about it wasn’t going to help anyone!

This moment feels just like that, somewhere deep in my raised right heart which has learned a whole lot of new things.

One of those new things, since then, is Grammy-ness. Elder-ness.

I’ve also learned that flying our Real Me flags is the best thing for us as humans-in-progress.

And, that’s exactly what I want for my grandteens!!!

Actually, it’s what I want for all our Littles. I want it so much that I’m going to make a profession… I am officially beyond the whole raised right thing. As in done-done!

And this feels like a really good time to claim it. To notice that the Universe is in a place we’ve never been before… a portal, if you will. And it’s our job to join the team! (I’m liable to make a t-shirt!)

Money, sex, and power have always, always, always been huge issues. We get to re-frame them! Consciously. Intentionally. With honor to those who survived before us. And those who did not survive.

Here’s my attempt, much to the dismay of my inner editor who is convinced that she hasn’t had long enough to ponder…

Money is a tool. Not a matter of worth. We can use it for good, rather than simply for control.

Sex – or gender – is an expression of self… and we get to decide whether to love and uplift, or to dominate.

Power is always relative to something or someone. We get to choose to claim power for, rather than power over. Even though a whole lot of people, through a whole lot of time, have chosen over, rather than for.

Now is our time to choose… not just for ourselves, but for the future of the world. And, in this particular story, for those of us in the USA, now means 104 days.

I’m choosing a world in which all our Littles have choices. And voices. And sovereignty.

Many, many of my ancestors and family members did not have those options. The same is true for your family, whether you know their names and stories, or not.

Two of my great aunts – sisters named Mary and Alice – were hanged as witches in Salem. On the same day. Charges that often resulted in women being tried as witches were being in possession of, and able to read, a book other than the bible and having no living husband, father, brother, or son to control their money and property.

Those who did the accusing and judging, all those years ago, believed they held the only truth and were entitled to put women to death for those reasons.

Far too many of their descendants – genetic and political – believe that they hold the only truth and are entitled to similar powers in our time.

It’s time, and long past, to end the current expressions of such errant and tragic beliefs.

This is my heart-image of what that might look like…

Raise your hand. Gather your power-for. Claim your place in the circle. The time has come!

ps… this post is dedicated to my Grandmothers, Elsie and Elizabeth. Activists, both… in their ways and times.

pps… the painting in the middle is a #RedMadonna project, entitled Womb of Creation. May I – and all of us who choose to do so – create on!

I can still feel it… chills chasing up and down the back of my neck as Jean blew Taps on her bugle. The two of us walking the paths through one Florida state park or another, depending on the year, and making lights-out rounds of all the cabins.

The sound of giggling ‘tweens mixed with hooting owls, the occasional grumbling bobcat, and, one summer, the scream of a Florida panther on the shore of the lake.

It was a space somehow out of time. No physics or SAT tests. No TV sit-coms. And, with the exception of a lifeguard/bus driver or two, no men.

It was my very rustic, poison ivy covered, gnawed on by fire ants introduction to the Divine Feminine. Of course, I didn’t know that, consciously! I didn’t even know the words.

Six summers. Summers which included my first Moon time, swimming with Manatees, learning Macrame’, passing Red Thread, sitting with the homesick ones, and telling stories. Stories of how we were all related. Even the fire ants!

Fifty years, more or less, before I encountered the notion of Medicine Basket, I was filling my own.

Then came decades of learning several versions of the way we’ve always done it.

I started to be conscious of that dynamic in nursing school when I realized that my instructors, who were 30 or 40 years older than the students, were teaching us what they’d learned from their teachers, who did much of their learning during the Korean War.

While I was finishing my BA at Eckerd college, I learned one of my all-time favorite quotes… wisdom from the Quaker tradition:

In order to learn, we must be willing to be changed.

I knew, with every cell in my body, the huge truth of those words.

Then, when I was in Seminary, I encountered more than a few folks who seemed to wish those particular words weren’t true! Fortunately, those weren’t the only voices!

There were also folks trying to find new ways of telling old stories in a world never imagined by the first people to speak them… likely filled with fears of both silence and speaking. (Though that could be projection on my part!)

Somehow, though, I am here, today… sharing these words with you, in a time when silence feels far more terrifying than speaking.

And I have a new language now! Images!!!

What fascinates me the most is that, when I allow myself to learn new things about the process of putting paint on canvas, I am also learning new things about me. About my fears and my dreams. About being seen. About showing up… all of me!

It’s not all this world needs, but it is choosing to put one foot in front of the other, on the way.

The Way of Love. Which just might have been what Jean was hoping we’d learn, all those years ago!

For this moment, a bowl of my very own bone broth. With lots of veggies. And gratitude!

And, an offer… 30 minutes. My gift. You show up willing to claim the place you long to be. We’ll start making the map! Just click here and the calendar elves will gladly hook you up!

ps… no explaining the art, this day. You tell me what you see and hear! Really!!! Leave me a comment, if you like. Or email me. suesvoice@gmail.com

pps… I’m waving my magic brush-hammer again, and declaring that all original art and archival prints at FierceArtWithHeart – including those in the guest artist collection – are 20% off the current listed price, ONLY through July 22nd, at 11:59pm EDT. Just enter the code The Tower when you check out… (And, if you have your heart set on something major, there’s an option to spread out the payments!)

ppps… if Jean were here now, she’d say what I’m saying… never tRump!

Caution! Mixed metaphors ahead!!!

It’s been more than a bit of a week in my world. Probably in yours, too. Certainly in THE world! And, yes… as you may have noticed, I’ve been dreaming. Mountains.

I’ve also been painting mountains. I need them for the book I’m writing. Actually, the writing is done. It’s the images that are still unfolding.

Trust me when I tell you it’s an adventure!

See if you relate to this….

I know what I want! It’s just that getting it out of my heart/head and onto canvas means seeing things… making them concrete when they’ve mostly been word-symbols inside me.

You know how some of the old, old stories speak of creation as coming out of chaos. That’s where I am! And, frankly, the external chaos isn’t helping. (I’m guessing you hear me…)

So, I spent yesterday’s 15 minutes dedicated to doing-something-that-matters-to-me in a small group of others doing things that matter to them, sipping my cacao/collagen potion and staring at this…

There was, as you’ve probably guessed, more time needed for doing stuff that matters to me. My next right thing was hunting for the photo at the top!

An early quilt project. A gift for my son and his beloved. One I had no idea how to pull off until I got started!

I wanted mountains. What I had was a huge box of fabric scraps. And some ideas about colors, which was complicated since Dave tends in the direction of color blind! Then there was the bit about figuring out the zig-zag look.

That same kind of reverse engineering is going on with these painted mountains! I started with a photo a friend sent of some mountains here in Georgia, hoping to make my painting look something like that. It turns out there’s lots of stuff behind the mountains that needed to happen first. So now I’m going back and doing first stuff first so I can, eventually, get to last stuff!

I’m trying to stay curious about the flood of stuff that’s been bottled up a long time, coming forth as I work, in the context of the news in this moment.

(For now, time out for PT so I can keep painting!)

Then a bit of a song appeared in the auditory/digital processing center of my brain… I look to the mountains, from whence comes my aid! And, yes… the language might long for a bit of an update. Still, it helps!

Maybe realizing that our brains are full of mixed metaphors would be a good strategy for venturing out into this world!

It’s possible, though, that you might want to wrap yourself in a mountain quilt and make a bit more space for dreaming into what’s really really calling to you, first!

ps… here’s where the mountains and I are at the moment…

pps… I’m waving Sunday’s magic brush-hammer again, and declaring that all original art and archival prints at FierceArtWithHeart – including those in the guest artist collection – are 20% off the current listed price, through July 22nd, at 11:59pm EDT. Just enter the code The Tower when you check out… (And, if you have your heart set on something major, there’s an option to spread out the payments!)